The Routine

Choices. Trials. Happiness. Lie. Love. Fear. Patience. Disappointments. Faith. Distrust.

Does life suck? No. Is life a cycle? Definitely, inevitably… YES.

I don’t know about you but I did grow up learning that life is a “cycle” yet many times I do forget it. I do forget it when I am happy. I do forget it when I am sad. I don’t remember it when I am trusting and waiting and believing or when I am discouraged, disappointed or worst when I am a failure. And I’m not certain that I could remember it later after I wrote this, or tomorrow when I wake up.

I love the way the wise teacher states this in Ecclesiastes 7:14 CEV,

When times are good,    you should be cheerful; when times are bad,    think what it means.God makes them bothto keep us from knowing    what will happen next.

You see. Life, contrary to the norms, is NOT full of surprises. The fact that we know that life is uncertain should make us not to be startled with what tomorrow will bring.

Honestly, right now. I feel tired. Though I don’t do anything, I am not into studies nor in a workplace, yet I feel exhausted…exhausted not of living nor breathing but on my life’s routine. Well, the routine I’m pertaining to is not the physical everyday to-do-things but of the real life itself. Yesterday was good, a while ago didn’t go my way. Now I am on a small room in front of a four-cornered 15.6” screen, pretending to understand life and how it goes, digging deeper where thoughts and words could meet. And this activity can happen again maybe tomorrow, the day after tomorrow, the day after two tomorrows. I will never know. Amazing, isn't it?! And the same goes with life. Struggles after struggles. Giants after giants.

You may think I’m crazy. And your thoughts are REALLY none of my business. I just want to express what’s inside of me right now (since I misplaced my scratch-like green journal). I would also like to know if I am normal (that is when someone can relate to these writings). I have no one to talk but GOD and myself. HE knows me and my thought and my tomorrow. Maybe now I am down yet HE holds me firmly.

Maybe now I am down but this I have felt before…many times. And many more times, I am lifted, happy, victorious. Well, this feeling should never surprise me. It will eventually passed. I just have to remind myself. Things may not go the way I want it but I believe it’s going the way GOD wants it.  HIS plans cannot be thwarted. HIS intentions cannot be shaken (Psalm 33:11). So should I.

My life is a wheel, not of fortunes, but of GOD’s great love.

Trials produces a more stable faith.

Loneliness is to prove that in GOD is the fullness of joy, overflowing.

Unless my life is all about me, then it’s all up to me. Since my life is all about HIM, then it’s all up to HIM.

Life sucks and can take you by surprise bringing you disappointments. It is a wearisome routine, a never-ending cycle, a continuous ups and downs. This is life not acknowledging GOD and HIS power and HIS sovereignty and HIS great love for mankind.

But life with GOD? Try it. And you’ll be drowned, not with the raging flood of fear, bitterness, inequity and condemnation.

You will be drowned in HIS calm ocean of love, peace, joy, serenity, blessings, a never-ending grace and mercy.

HE makes me glad. HE is singing over me every moment I am down. HE loves to sing over you too. (Zephaniah 3:17)