I am a traveler.
I go to places where
my mind can have peace.
I got to places
where my heart stops beating and never beats again the same way.
I wanna go to places
where there no negativity.
No drivers who were
impatient and shouting.
No little kids on
street sides that were abandoned.
No family under the
bridge who shares in a cup of rice.
I am a photographer.
I am aspiring to be
one.
I capture the smiles
of the people around me.
I want the happiness
to be visible and stay for a long time.
But it doesn't.
I end up taking
photo of a lonely person in cafeteria.
I end up focusing on
the pregnant woman holding a lit cigarette.
I end up seeing the
disposable things floating crammed in the wide river.
I am a time-saver.
I am not a
timekeeper.
Yes, I do not waste
time dealing with the regretful notions.
Yet, i do not save
time for the important things.
I spent time on the
temporary things.
Here now, gone
later.
Joy for a minute,
tears for a whole day.
I am not able to
enjoy the sunlight
I wake up
complaining about the heat.
I find birds
chirping a noise and the warm wind disgusting.
I am a money-keeper.
I keep them and say
I am generous.
I'd like to see
others above me.
Yet, I feel jealous.
Rich have all they
need and have all they want.
But doesn't care
about the shelter-less.
I am not GOD.
I am not perfect.
I do not hold the
world in my hand.
The worlds is
neither containing me alone.
I can't control
myself though I have a choice.
I can't control the
scenes around me either.
I can't have long
lasting peace.
I do not have a
forever love.
Selah.
JESUS.
He is the love, the
only truth that lives.
He is peace Himself.
And He wants to walk
with me.
He holds my hands
and guide me.
He cheers me while I
am running the race and keeps from stumbling.
When I fell, He
offered His hands.
I noticed a hole.
And blood came running down His face.
Tears filled my
eyes, a nail and hammer dropped from my hands.
No, I am not a
murderer.
I've just forgotten
my first love, my passion, the One who loves me the most.
Scales fell from my
eyes which blinded me.
Now I see the light.
The people have no
more tears, they are clothed in white.
There's a pure river
of joy by the cross bridge.
Little children sing
with the birds under the canopy of the wide-branched trees.
There is an anchor
of faith and anchor of hope.
There is LOVE.
Now, I live to see
to Jesus.
And His life
influencing.
I am not a
traveler.
Not a photographer,
nor a timekeeper.
I live to be like
Jesus.
I am to be Him to
others.
